Here is a note from Jon and he is hoping to be able to post here today.
Thank you all for taking time out of your day to send thoughts his way. I'm humbled by the outpouring of our members and a special thank you to those offering known medical advice.
I salute you all.
Les,
I just got done reading the thread and I can hardly see straight. My eyes are so blurry from a torrential downpour of tears. Thank you thank you thank you. I was really at my giving up point, and your message seemed to hit at just the moment it needed to. I truly felt I was going this alone, as it has been five years and I've just gotten worse. I moved away and am in a new neighborhood now and have no friends here. My other friends were all my fellow teachers, and they are all too busy to hang out with a sick guy.
I know I can be longwinded (I think I do it more to be funny than anything at this point), but I was left utterly speechless after reading that thread. I just felt my heart fill with hope and happiness and kindness. Thank you for facilitating this. I wasn't out looking for attention. I was trying to lay low and not mess up any more parts of my life. I just have been in such a bad place.
I've felt so totally and completely alone. My wife and kids love me, but they have lives to live and don't have the energy to deal with every single setback I have. They sure try, but it is wearing them out too. They have to go to movies and such to get away from me and have a break from the sadness. I totally get it. Nobody wants to watch somebody die.
Tell everybody I am boosted so much right now and am having a real cleansing cry. They can call me a wuss or a baby if they want. I don't care anymore. I'm proud that those fine folks made me cry because I REALLY needed it badly. I needed to let it out. That pushed me over the edge. Thank you DOTNET and especially my long-time pal and voice of reason (who replaced my Dad and doesn't even know it!) Les Norton.
I love you all. I mean that. I'd do anything I could for any of you. I promise to get my self gathered and drop in and read the rest of the board and say thanks tomorrow. As for now... I'm just going to finish up a day that was really terrible and realize that it turned out pretty darn good, and I'm a truly blessed person who has more friends than one person deserves.
Thanks Les! I am so grateful that I have a friend like you who genuinely cares about people and "gets it". You know what life is all about and what matters. You always are there to offer a kind word or a bit of friendly advice, and you've never been wrong in all interactions with me. Your way of just approaching people kindly and letting them know that you're here as a support is huge. Thank you Les. Tell Mark and Aros a million thank yous as well.
I'd love to meet the Utah guys and talk Hawks. It would be awesome.
I'll hope I can log in and post tomorrow. If not... feel free to paste in some of this if you have time!
Jon