A few months ago I was banned from the Shack. While no specific rule was broken, I did indeed push the boundaries of common courtesy on occasion. I pushed the boundaries too far, and that’s that. At that time, I told myself and the mods I wasn’t going to come back.

While it would seem logical that was done with a pity-party in mind, that wasn’t the case. I’ve lived with myself long enough to understand the triggers and situations which trigger my OCD. Any situation where my validity or decency as a human in real life will trigger that (my family name carried baggage).

And, as much as it would seem the opposite, I care a lot about my reputation here (abandonment issues, obviously). Too much. So, as much as it shouldn’t bother me, someone ripping my character in a situation where I can’t defend myself, it absolutely does. Add to that the “you’re not human enough for the shack” interpretation, and, wowzers.

I was very foolish and an all-around a “mental midget” for not bowing out back then . And because of that, regretfully, I’ve been browbeating mods to delete my account all AM. And, that’s just stupid. Safe to say if I was on fire, Absolut would hawk a loogy my direction and Jseahawks would mouth “quack” in an attempt to fan the flames. The others would be justified in not lending a hand.

I know better than all this. I just do. I’m equally embarrassed and ashamed.

I’m not writing this for attention. I’m doing this to provide a definitive statement from which I can’t easily “worm” out. And, because I’ve been here since 2004, have met a lot and consider everyone my “crew”. It’s also just time. I’m not a message board, online type guy. I can honestly say I’ve never even seen another message board. I don’t belong.

As I type this there’s probably a couple of members bashing me (or so I heard), who’s bravery coincidently corresponds with my exit from the Shack. I can’t make sense of that.

Anyways, this place is amazing. I’ve travelled to away games, hosted for, drank with, sold drugs to, etc to so many over the years. I’ve done things from build training databases for a member, to actually being a suicidal help-line for one member, until he found insurance. When I was still cool, in maybe one of the last conversations between Leif and myself, we spoke to the ironic yet special thing us members offer each other. Helping someone out like that was the subtext for that specific conversation.

Amazing.

@ryanadamdavis


XOXO

Ryan Adam Davis

You can't leave. You're only 80 posts shy of 10000.

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You are absolutely entitled to state your opinion whenever you wish, and I am absolutely entitled to point out the stupidity of that opinion with the same frequency.

You can't ever leave .NET, Ryan. You're an important, historic cog in the wheel that makes this site roll.

Besides, your avatar gets me all hot.

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"We're 11-1? We're 1-0 today and that's all that matters." -- Doug Baldwin after the MNF beatdown against the Saints

Can't leave us, man!

Peaches peaced out on me already!

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3elieve

Easily one of my favorites from all the years that I've been on this site. Hopefully its just a break and you decide to come back.

The Ducks winning the title this year just won't be the same if I cant rub it in your face.

This saddens me.

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I'm a douchebag for letting trolls like Roland and BFS get under my skin. I cant control that little "don't take shit" quirk I have. Plus, people like Roland will always have the advantage, because I would literally by Roland a beer and dinner if we ever met. But, his priority is holding on to an online grudge and corresponding gimmick.

As much as I post here, which is a lot, I barely know how to use the chat function. This is there world. I love ya.

Damnit, pe's one of the few who actually seem to "get" me without exhaustive explanation. (No insult intended, but y'know.) Not that I don't enjoy the flip side of that in that rare is the individual who seems to get that I'm jacking with them, but... hell, man.

Dude, make like an evergreen tree and don't leave.

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Tanzania¹²

wa `alaykumu s-salāmu wa rahmatu l-lāhi wa barakātuh

In the past I said a couple times that I was leaving, then change my mind. It doesn't make you a bad person.

The best thing to do is give up on the head bashing when someone gets a bee in their bonnet.

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Eh, it's the internet. Stupid drama happens. Let it slide and stick around.

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12 > 49

You know what, pe? Everyone hates an attention whore who just has to get some pity before they leave.

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My single greatest contribution to the board: "42-13" (formerly 24-14)

Glad you're thinking about sticking around. I like (most of) your posts.

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Don't leave pe!

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Legal Notice: Any references made by the online entity know as SacHawk2.0 or "Sac" in regards to "RolandDeschain" or "iRo" being a pre-op tranny with an anal bead/club and nubbins fetish are entirely accurate.

It's a sad day when a dysfunctional human being doesn't want to insult random strangers on the Internet. I doubt Al Gore would have bothered inventing the Internet if he knew it would come to this.

I would take a break for a few weeks - make your daughter a Halloween costume, do your Xmas shopping - and then come back in time for the play-offs. I think there will be a change in tone by then. I think that there is a little bit of a change in tone recently. Shared suffering leads to shared identity. Now that we are suffering less, the esprit d'corps is no longer here. The average thread in the Shack degenerates within a page into stupid insults. Whereas it used to degenerate into clever insults. And those threads which are supposed to be mix it up with someone make Tupac's "Hit 'em Up" look like an invitation to tea and scones. We're missing some fun round here - we no longer have 130 post threads about making fake films. On the plus side, we no longer have 130 post threads about making fake films.

Don't be a stranger Ryan - we need more fun.

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Machine-wrapped, with butter?

Yes, machine-wrapped, WITH BUTTER

Ryan,

You are a good man and I thank you for all the help you've given me over the years.

I'd bear your children if I didn't have such narrow hips

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We are a family around here. No family has 100% of the members getting alone 100% of the time. Take a lil break and chill a bit. Step back a bit and change the angle of your view, you will see things in a slightly different light and all will be well.

This is the Hotel .Net, you can check out, but you can never leave.

Edit: from the new guy.

Pe, quit being a bitch

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"it'd be a newborn deer" - pehawk

My idols: Pe, Hawkstrap, Cdallan, and Scotte

Fart.

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President of the Perfect Parents Society - est. 2013